I Am Woman.

"I'm just a girl WOMAN..."


I'm 22 years old. At this point, I've been an adult for 4 years and a legal adult (in other words, I'm able to drink alcohol at bars!) for only 1 year. Even though I'm technically "grown", there's still kind of a dissonance.

On one hand, I still feel like a "girl". I am and will always and forever be, a dreamer. And I dream BIG. I still have that bit of naivety, which can be good and bad. The reality is, I need to learn to plan and be a little more realistic sometimes. I need to make these dreams come true. Girls fantasize. Women REALIZE their dreams.

I don't think it helps that I don't actually look my age. I mean, most grown look at me with my puff, glasses, smooth baby skin, and no makeup and think that I could be no older than 18. And they tend to treat me as such...Sometimes I think that's why I don't get approached by a lot of guys my age. They think I'm jail bait!

Even though my youthful look is something I definitely wanna hold on to (especially when I get up in age), at 22 years old, I just want to look my age! We can rewind the clock at sayyyyy...25! My solution to looking more mature, is that I'm headed to the makeup counter. The truth is, most girls my age wear makeup. Even though I don't think I need makeup (as some people do...), there's nothing wrong with wanting to enhance my look! Girls look cute. Women look GORGEOUS.

Now, with all I just said, do not mistake this for the fact that I am immature and irresponsible. I think I was 18 or 19, I remember telling my little cousin (who was about 7, by the way) that I was grown. Being the sassy thing she was, she asked, "Do you have a job? Do you have a car? Do you have an apartment?"' (I didn't.) "Then you ain't grown!" LOL. If that's all it takes, I guess I'm grown. I have a job, my own car, and an apartment that I pay the rent for. All this while, making Dean's List for 2 straight semesters and I'll be graduating in December. I drink, but never drive. I don't tell guys I love them when I don't. I keep my legs closed. Etcetera, etc.

But let's get to the point since my butt is getting sore from sitting under the hair dryer. lol With graduation quickly approaching in December for me, I have truly started evaluating myself and my future. College was a stall for time until I get out in the real world. It was also time to think about what exactly I want to do in the future: I want to be successful. I want to be happy. I want to be respected by others.  This is true, but this is a girl's plan. It lacks true direction, goals, and a timeline. I am realizing that in order to reach the goals and bring my ambitious 10-year old girl self's dreams to fruition, I need to start looking at myself as a woman. I need others to look at me in that way as well. I need a WOMAN'S plan.

There may be so much I have yet to learn and the future is pretty unsure, but I know one thing's for sure.....I am not a girl: I'm a WOMAN!

Yours Truly,
Aesha

P.S. Here's one of my anthems "I Am Woman" by Jordin Sparks!

#MyThemeSong: What's Yours?

My theme song is "Watch Me Work" by Melanie Fiona. I am instantly uplifted when I listen to this song and it reminds me of my mission in this world. This song actually motivated me to start this blog!

"Sick of ordinary days you wanna scream and shout
Feeling like it's time to change, get a little wild
Come up from behind the shade, be a rebel child
Gonna raise some hell tonight
Cause it's alright, don't have to be afraid
There's a spotlight, that's shining just for you
Go the distance, then show 'em what we're really made of

 Watch me work! something different, something new
Watch me work! out the box, out the blue
Watch me work! something sexy, something fine
Watch me work! out the box, blow your mind
Watch me work!"
 

If you are starring in a TV show called "Your Life", what's your theme song?

In a world full of music, I think it's important to have that one song that's not just your "turn up" song but that song that uplifts and inspires you with lyrics that speak to you personally.

So here's a simple challenge: On your social networks (Facebook, Twitter, Instagram), upload/share videos of you with the tag "#MyThemeSong" and "#MyLifeInYellow." I would love to share others videos on my blog (if people are actually willing to participate!).

So what do you say? Let's start a social network movement! #MyThemeSong

(Watch the "Watch Me Work" video at the top!)

 

 

"Live your life in YELLOW!"



Snubbed at BW-Dubs...

 

First off, let me just say I  have got to get better with updating my blog! I've already had a few other attempts at blogging but I really want to make this one a success. I'll probably post more frequently after the semester is finished (in 2 weeks!).

 

Ok. Back to the point of this post. So, yesterday me & my roommate/friend Kenya decided to go out to Buffalo Wild Wings. Thursday is 60 cent boneless wings night so for a college student, it's heaven (& cheap!). We ate our wings and mozzarella sticks, caught up with our waitress (who's known us most of college at this point), and engage in conversation about what else? Guys. Relationships.

 

As we're leaving out the door, we're still kinda in conversation. We barely get outside an all of a sudden I hear an "Excuse me..". I turn around and there stands this FINE man! Tall, light skin (potentially bi-racial), beautiful smile, and beautiful body (strong arms, chest, errthang!), with an Omega Psi Phi (Q-Dawgs) wristband. In my head, I'm gasping. Thinking that this gorgeous man had eyed me and followed me out the restaurant. I was cute. New outfit, hair swinging, belly ring showing. I was sure a guy was approaching me this time..........

 



 

*record scratch* I was wrong.  

 

He turned to my friend, dressed in t-shirt and sweatpants with her hair in plaits, and asked how she was doing. Smiling. Doing what guys do when they approach a woman. To me? He shook my hand....I'm guessing just to be polite since I was standing there.

 

So I stand there in disbelief (& defeat!) as he asked about her plans for the night and even offers to take her out. I think she was a little taken aback by it too. I could tell she found him attractive too. Unfortunately, she has a boyfriend and like anyone in a faithful relationship, she turned his offer down.

 

After he walked back in BWW, we were talking about how GORGEOUS he was & that even SHE thought he was walking out to talk to me. I told her that I thought so too...& that I needed ugly friends! (She laughed hysterically!)

 

Ok...

 

This situation baffled me for the rest of the night. Even though I was the one who looked put together (with a tantalizing belly ring showing), he approached my friend in plaits and sweats. No offense to Kenya. She's very pretty...but how did he know that she didn't look like this everyday? For that night, my self-esteem took a dive.

 

I guess I'll never understand it. But when I think about it, guys tend to approach me more when I'm least expecting it. For instance, when I go out. I get dolled up for hours and I'm looking good, feeling great. I take a look in the mirror and think, "Damn! I would ask for my number!" I'm expecting guys to try to talk to me.

 

Nothing. Not a single guy will approach me a lot of nights.

 

On the other hand, I'll be in dressed in a hoodie and jeans with a beanie on my head and run to Wal-Mart or study in the library. Times when I don't really feel like being approached or even think that a guy will approach me...........A guy will try to talk to me.

 

?????

 

I guess the lesson that I've come to learn is that guys aren't quite as shallow as I tend to think they are. If a guy is reading this post--Comment! Help me understand what makes men approach women.

 

Clearly I'm clueless!

 

 

"Live your life in YELLOW!"

Guess who's 22???

That's right. It's my birthday...& I'm feeling 22!!

#TURNUP

(Will update this post later when I get some time!

Fashion Moments: "An Uptown Spring"

Looking at these pictures makes me smile. First off, they came out AMAZING! Secondly, you get to take a look inside my heart. My passion. My dream. Even though I'm in school, my dream is to become a fashion stylist. I get compliments often on my fashion, but little do people know that it runs deeper than just a cute outfit. I love to create looks--moments (even in my everyday life). I had so much fun creating these looks and modeling, all the while finding inspiration in uptown Charlotte, NC. 

The Story: Two young, confident women from two different worlds with two different personal styles enjoy a warm day on separate sides of town. Will they ever meet?

Special thanks to my roommate/creative partner-in-crime Kenya Davis who truly got my vision. (Be sure to check out Artist Universe for more of her photography & artistic works!) All photos shot by Kenya Davis for Artist-Universe.com. More shoots to come!

 Crop Top: Plato's Closet

Open Chevron Cardigan: Charlotte Russe

High-Waist Shorts: Charlotte Russe

Brown Ankle Boots: Plato's Closet (rue21)

Gold Feather Earrings: Plato's Closet

Gold Bracelets: Charlotte Russe

Sunglasses: Dots Fashions

Black Satchel Bag: 5.7.9

Striped Crop Top: Papaya Clothing

Denim Overalls: Papaya Clothing

Yellow Flats: 5.7.9

Pearl Necklace: 

Rhinestone Studs: Charming Charlie

Bracelets: Charlotte Russe

Sunglasses: Dots Fashions

Leopard Purse: Dots Fashions

 

"Live your life in yellow!"

(Note: To see more pictures in the photo gallery, click & drag the photo gallery up & down!)

Photo Teaser: "An Uptown Spring"

 

Check out all the pics from this shoot tomorrow on "My Life In Yellow"!!

"Live your life in yellow!"

Fabulous Saturday

"Did someone say fabulous...?"

It's Saturday. Today I woke up with the biggest smile on my face and a happy song running through my head. Why do you ask? Because it's Saturday. And where am I? Not at work!!! (Thank you God!)

I'm a full-time student that works an "almost full-time" job as a hostess at a sports bar (not as easy as you would think!). When I don't have class, I'm usually at work. When I don't have work, I'm still at class. So to have this Saturday off with no class or work...#YesGawd. 

Since I have this day off, what do I have planned? Not much. For most of the day, I'll probably get some stuff done that I've been meaning to do. Do some psychology work, clean my room, wash my car, cook dinner. Sounds lame right?

The most interesting part of my day will hopefully be this evening. Lately, I've really had the urge to express myself creatively. Get all my thoughts out of my mind and into the universe (hence, this blog!). I've realized that I often talk about how much I love fashion and I have amazing style (yes, I tooted my own horn), but I have no proof. So, later I'm planning to go uptown with my roommate and do a spring photo shoot of some of my favorite looks that I own. 

My main goal with these pics is that I can somehow increase my social media presence. I'll post them on here, Twitter, Instagram, etc. I have big dreams in fashion and the gift of style and taste and I want others to see.

I'm ready for my closeup... (pics coming soon!)

Happy Saturday loves! 

Live your life in yellow!

On Repeat: My Top 5 Playlist

Among many other things, I would say that music is a passion of mind and I crave good music like no other (over 1600 songs on my iPod!). Ever so often on my blog, I will post a Top 5 playlist. Now this playlist won't necessarily consist of what's "hot" right now, but what songs I'm feeling at the moment. I'm mostly into R&B music, but I also listen to good pop and hip-hop as well. With that being said, here's what I'm loving right now (in no particular order):

1) "Show Me" - Kid Ink ft. Chris Brown (After hearing this song on the radio ALL the time, it definitely grew on me. Perfect springtime ridin' song!)

2) "Fancy"- Iggy Azalea ft. Charlie XCX (I've heard a couple of her songs and I wasn't really into them. But this one...winner!)

3) "Primetime"- Janelle Monae ft. Miguel (This song never gets old to me! Perfect love song.)

4) "Strawberry Bubblegum"- Justin Timberlake (Don't laugh but: I just got The 20/20 Experience about a month ago. Amazing album from beginning to end. This was an instant favorite for me!)

5)"Where Did We Go Wrong"- Toni Braxton & Babyface (Toni Braxton is one of my favorite singers ever. The vocals on this song are beautiful from her and Babyface.)


Live your life in yellow!